7 months today. 05-08-08/12-08-08.

So, today was the first of many new developments happening in my life. I am currently working 4 days a week for personal reasons. Some day I hope to share the entire story of how this came to be, including an AMAZING school system, a team a teachers and administrators people only dream of working with, a compassionate doctor, and most importantly, the support from my husband and family. One day...but as of today...I'm not ready.

Today was just another Monday to most people in the world. To me, it marked the seventh time I heard the date and shuttered, the seventh time I dreaded 3pm, the seven-millionth time I cried about my Steph. Today I have been energized, loved, sad, depressed, angry, and joyful...because today I gave Steph the tree of her dreams. It has a tiara for a topper, and pink, purple, and sparkle garland. I mean, come on...even Doug said she'd have wanted this in her bedroom. I think I'm going to keep it. If I take it down after the holidays it won't get thrown away and I can make it part of my NEW tradition. Decorating Steph's tree-for her-for me. One day, maybe Scotty and Sara will join me, but for today it was my way to tell her no holiday, no christmas, no day will ever be the same without her, but I will be okay.
Starting today; my first Monday "off"
I will be okay.

New work schedule
New exercise plan
New "meeting"
New Monday lunch date
New tradition

New Normal-all these things are going to become part of my normal, but for now they are all NEW.
Thanks Stephanie.